Susann Carmen Jagodzińska is a polish-german photographer, writer and filmmaker based in Paris, France. She works in the field of art as a form of self integration and self discovery. She is looking at inner places where separation has occurred and where belief systems might impose their role over intuition. She tries to make the constructed selves and their belief systems visible by providing and understanding how a « self reflective » space thought art can be created. After studying ethnology, philosophy and film in Germany, Japan and France she turned herself towards photography while continuing her filmic experiences. « When feeling into a silent space for witnessing the origin, where pain has occurred, we become more self conscious and able to heal those fragmented parts into wholeness. So that memory and remembrance of the intuitive self can emerge and be experienced. » Through her art she tries to give to the observers, the ones that actively observe the artwork and themself, space to « hear and feel» their own thoughts and emotions by sharing her own experience. Echo of Photons is the documented search to understand a complex internal process, expressed through photography and text. It was edited as a photography - text book in 2022 by Céedition. It was also part of an exhibition at Iris Arles ( 03/28-05/05/2025). The photographies don’t illustrate the text. Both have their own path and reality, which are entering in resonance, echoing each other. Allowing to go deeper into each other’s worlds. I am working with analog photography, mostly in black and white but also in color. In small and medium format, sporadically using Polaroid, Super 8 and 16 mm film stills. I appreciate to work with film for its uncompromised sincerity. The project includes photos taken in Poland and France between 2017-2022. In Echo of Photons the photographies are shaping a journey from a desolated small city in Poland, through the forest towards the sea; from black and white to color. From my childhood to my adulthood, revisiting my life’s experiences and its path; from fragmentation towards the process of slowly becoming more self aware, more whole. The text is a prose composition that tells the story of young girl facing her memories. Trying to find sense within the chaos of amnesia, impressions and feelings. Different realities which are colliding. Sometimes they are even contradicting each other. A fall from a window. A father’s paranoia. A dog found half dead that becomes a young boy in the eyes of an amnesiac mother. A doctor lying. A girl that always goes beyond, merging with the sea. As the sea holds all. She lays in it surrounding. Weirdly, she does not drown. Echo of Photons is an intuitive and intimate work that documents the process in which I am getting awareness on my own fragmentation and the importance of nature leading the process to find back my self into wholeness. As the self is nature in itself. Photography as the preservation of the present moment. It is the witnessing of the body, mind and heart. The disagreements between them and the silent act of acceptance of what ever emerges. Perfect in its imperfection. The text is a form of finding a new translation, building a new inner language. In which the intuition speaks and the mind learns to listen. It is the witnessing of artificial structures that fall apart as they are witnessed. What is organic remains. Finding a place to re-experience trauma, reclaiming fragmented parts of the self and embracing a journey towards healing. My artistic process allows me to face my amnesia as things emerge. For those who resonate I am sharing my work. As I know how lonely this process can be. Echo of Photons reflects how I experienced inner dying and inner aliveness as a human being. It documents the birth of my own intuition. At one point of my life, I became aware of my fragments. Then my problem was: How to integrate and how to know what is true? I didn't knew how but I felt I have a deep right to do so, to become whole. This felt like an internal and external war between everything I thought to be true. I started photography because of its friendly reminder to say: « You are here. You are walking on earth and have the right to exist. » Not knowing who I was, I searched to feel present as there was this deep calm that my running mind couldn’t control. Step by step I was learning to surrender. Learning to witness what my body was carrying, individually, ancestrally, collectively. And as I did, I could feel a new world opening up to me. I could see how polarities were simply falling away when witnessed. Peacefulness emerged. Once one become aware of the fragmented parts of ones consciousness the choice towards healing can be made. This shifts the perception of reality. The risk of not being self-aware, is the inability to make conscious choices. Conscious choices need an integrated Body- Heart and Mind in order to be made. Unfortunately, so often, the communication between them is broken. Conscious choices themselves shift the exterior reality. Then, naturally, the individual healing process would bring awareness to collective bodies. Our society is deeply encoded with nuances of polarity built through structures of power (abuse). Those are self reinforcing by using, for example, fear and desire, reward and punishment. Being able to see this helps to stay critically alert of what is being presented. For me, art is there to understand structures of polarity and not to utilize them in order to take advantage of unconscious pain within a hurt society. I want to believe that when awareness occurs, the choice of healing the collective can also be made. As everyone is a piece of the larger puzzle. Through art we are establishing a communication between the interior and the exterior world. It has the ability, through sincere participation of the artist and observer, to reach « that something » that feels timeless, beyond words. If an art work is able to hold an universal truth (which is nothing else for me than a heart based individual truth) the artwork will create what we experience as timeless. The sharing of an intimate and honest moment gives an artwork the strength to carry on beyond an individual experience, allowing collective resonance with that experience. It is for me one of the ways art can be a healing force for the future.