Fractures of Times
by Abdul Razzak Jauhar

Pannafoto Institute, Indonesia
Graduation year: 2022

portfolio shortlisted call 'BLURRING THE LINES 2022', 2022

When I think of myself, I see puzzles. Or perhaps it’s only me, still finding myself. People might have ideas about me and they can label me. But they will never fully live inside of me or experience who I am. The thing is, in my 22 years old experience of living, I am still not sure how I would describe myself and to know who I am completely or who I’m gonna be. One thing I’m sure of is that I am a fragments of times in my life. My experiences of the past, present, and the longing of future impacted the way I think, feel, experience, and “see” the world I live in today. In this project, I examine these fragments of my life and reflect it in a series of photographs. Stories about my gender identity, childhood memories and trauma, places that hold bad memories, traumas, mental condition, as well as hope and dreams emerged. I experimented with different visual approaches and processes, such as self-portraits, mix-media, digital imaging, and archive photos and notes, to construct these fractures of myself. These approaches and processes are quite new to me but they reveal a variety of myselfs and life itself. The ending of this project is still unknown for me. I see myself still gathering pieces and pieces of myself everyday. I believe I’m still changing and developing. Thus, I will be continuing this series and let it unfold.


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